Where Does it Begin? Lets have a look...

It has been a long time since the last post and I can't say it has been much fun. Recently I have been trying to put my finger on what it is that is causing me to feel depressed so I thought I would try writing it down as that always makes me think more critically.

My current working theory is that there are a lot of little things going on that add up to depression but people have most commonly suggested that not having a serious relationship for a long time now is the key factor so I have decided to address this in this lovely little bloggy blog post (what a fantastic run on sentence that was!)

I think that lack of relationships is a fair suggestion but I don't think that is all it is or I would either a) be constantly seeking female companionship or b) be constantly complaining about not being able to find companionship or C) that I will be alone for my whole life. If I ever start complaining about being alone for my whole life or just acting like a certain friend of mines neighbors... kill me (in case this comes to pass I want all law enforcement officials to note that I did ask for it. Please don't press charges as it was probably one of my better friends that went through with it).

Granted its been a long time since I had a serious relationship. Some of you may remember but most of you probably never knew that there was a time when I was talking about marriage. A strange thought as I hate weddings but we were living together, getting along well and the conversation had come up and we had both decided that it was a good goal. I'm sure most have noticed that we never got there. It hurt, it stopped me from wanting to see anyone for a long time but it was a long time ago and now I can look back on that time and smile about it.

Since then there have been one or two other relationships along with a few failed attempts. There have been people with whom I was interested in exploring relationships with but never one that I really fell hard for. Maybe that is just how it goes when you get older, I don't know. Anyhow, I would say that things are going. Slower than your average person of my age perhaps but I don't really feel that this is an issue. In fact after writing this entry I can definitely say that this isn't the issue.

More on some other suggestions next time.