Time

There is an unlimited amount of it in the universe (ok physics enthusiasts could debate that one all day but lets skip that for right now) but there never seems to be enough. How can that be? I don't have an answer for this but I can attest to having fealt that way. A lot. Very recently too. In particular with free time.

Free time seems to be a misnomer. In theory it is time that is free. As in I had nothing planned for that block of time. However, I had to schedule the use of all of my other time in order to realize that I had free time. This makes free time feal very structured indeed.

With the crush of things that I have to do in order to function taking up most of my time in a frantic, never ending onslaught, doing something with my free time seems rather important. So why is it that with 'not free time' it gets planned and moves by as planned but when free time roles around nothing ever works? Got a free hour or two? Want to go see friends? If I didn't plan this two weeks ago with them, they are probably busy. Want to play some video games? Sorry there is nothing going on for you.

This is ultimately frustrating for me. I have a block of time that is free and can end up wasting half of it waiting on other people. This is why I often end up doing my own thing. Sure I make the calls still and see what people are doing but when I realize I have a free hour or two, I don't want to wait 45 minutes to do something.

And people wonder how I got so introverted.